A lot of times, I’m not as ambitious of a person as I’d like to be. I’m never the type to go forth and follow through with whatever I’m thinking about doing. The situations vary, from hesitating to answer a simple question in class, to asking somebody a favor, to initiating conversations with people in general, to wanting to participate in something, the list goes on. The times I feel like I should do something, I don’t.

I always feel like there would be consequences if I were to take that specific initiative, so I lay back. I don’t want to be judged or looked at funny or any of that, and I’m just always nervous about bringing attention to myself. If it’s on competitive terms, I’m afraid of losing or failure. I just lack confidence and acceptance. It’s one of many personal problems I’m trying to fix about myself.